17.2025

I spent $137.13 at the forbidden clothing store.

Yes, it was a moment of weakness, bourn from an amalgamation of my triggers: depression about the Big Trip being cancelled, "last day" of a sale where I also had coupons, browsing after bedtime, and feeling annoyed at some of my current clothes.

In fairness, I at least bought things I would actually wear right now. Nothing for my fantasy self. Nothing "just because it's a good deal." Nothing in a color or print that goes against everything else in my closet.

I got six items: one sweater, two zip-up hoodies, a pair of jeans, a blouse, and some ankle booties.

It's always a risk buying shoes online, since I have such odd feet. But my current booties are nearing seven years old and are wearing out. While I would like to replace them properly, they are $$$$$ and I would like something to just get me through the year for much less $ until I decide if I want to replace them in exactly the same style.

So the boots were probably the most frivolous purchase. But at an average of $22.86 per item, I'm willing to risk it.

I'm not proud, but I'm not totally disappointed in myself.

Also, now I no longer have any coupons for this store. I've deleted the app from my phone a month ago which has really helped. I had to go online and log-in to do all this, which for whatever reason seems to be an extra hassle and hurdle for me. So there's really no reason for me to check the store at all.

My goal is to not make any additional clothing purchases until my birthday in the summer. I know I should just say "no more clothes this year, period" but I know myself and know that while I can be strong, I can't be that strong, especially a whole year when I refresh for the season.

But I still need to keep telling myself that it's a No Buy Year because if I choose a "Low Buy Year" I would find all sorts of excuses to keeping purchasing things.