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I spent $169.45 on seven items of clothing that I don't need... but kinda maybe I do?

Yes, I am a little ashamed. I was doing so well! Walking away from carts. Deleting the apps. Ignoring sales.

But after wearing yet another pair of jeans that no longer fit correctly but made me sad because I really, really like them, I took advantage of jeans sale coupled with a couple of other awards.

Did a few clearance items that I'd been eyeing for months also make their way into my cart? Yes. I don't neeeeeeeed them. But I deleted so many possibilities from the cart and only stuck with ones I knew I'd wear because I have a similar item already (if not identical, in the case of one shirt – there are times when I want to wear all the things, and other times when I wish I could just be a cartoon character with a uniform).

I bought a size down in the identical pair of jeans I sadly kicked into the "wash and donate" pile earlier this week. I hope that will solve my problem. I'm going on a slow weightloss journey in an attempt to focus on my health, and as I age I am realizing my body is deciding I need to be a completely different shape (sigh...). So even reliable clothes aren't fitting like they used to.

Plus I'm trying to be a little more ruthless on the clothes I wear. If there's something that doesn't make me happy and it fits "okay but not great," then why do I keep bothering to go through the effort of washing it and keeping it around, only to be like, "eh, I don't know if I like this but I guess it covers my body in appropriate ways and isn't totally uncomfortable???"

I'm pretty sure I have some sensory issues, so there are some clothes that Just Do Not Work even though they seem perfectly fine. I need to stop hanging onto them because they're Perfectly Fine and just embrace the clothes that make me happy.

So while today was a failure, at least it was a success in that I was able to genuinely curate a cart and not buy something that looks cute but I might not actually wear, as well as take advantage of multiple stackable sales and use up some credit that is expiring soon.

It's weird to buy something and not immediately feel the burden of "oh god where am I going to put this" and instead feel relief because I can finally get rid of some clothes I merely tolerate.