Day 23 - FAIL!

OMG. I'm such a failure.

Not only have I been not keeping this "daily journal" that I so blithely assumed would be easy to do (500 words a day just checking for accountability, how hard can that be???). But no.

I didn't even make it a whole week!

Here it is, Day 23, and I am finally crawling back to admit that I did purchase some frivolous items. Sigh.

It started because my new job (whose year-end hours have been killing me and another reason why I haven't been updating, because I've literally been too tired to do anything but work, sleep, and attempt to stay sane the past few weeks) didn't have a source of hot water for tea. They are all coffee drinkers. I do not believe in the power of the microwave to make an adequate cup of tea.

So I went to a certain red circle retailer to get a cheap electric kettle, then made the mistake of browsing. A saw a couple of frivolous items I've wanted the past year... on sale! So I got them. The shame.

But, in my defense, I have managed to walk away and delete digital carts filled with frivolous shinies that tempted me all month. I have saved hundreds of dollars in not purchasing them. So yes, it's a fail, but it's also a win, because I keep remembering the two frivolous items (that I'm really happy about) and sit up straighter, determined to not fail again any time soon.

Well. Except for a limited merch pre-order for one of my favorite of favorite artists. But because I didn't squander those hundreds of dollars on shinies in the weeks prior, I was able to order that merch without (too much) guilt. Merch is how artists make their money these days, anyway, and I want them to keep making money so they keep making more songs and albums!

At least that's how I'm justifying it.

Anyway, so I haven't been perfect. But I am trying. And learning. And keep moving forward.

I'm still trying to figure out the format of this space. I originally planned daily check-ins a lá Bridget Jones (not that anyone below the age of 30 knows who that is any more) so I could look back and see my growth. At least I hope there's growth.

Failure's just a learning experience. The hard part is proving you've actually learned something.