Day 41: Anxiety is triggering

So, last week was... a week.

Yeah.

I may have lost faith in much of my countrymen. But then I also found some spaces to renew my faith, at least in some of them.

But I did have a moment of panic about the reliable skincare I use that comes from Korea and stocked up for at least a year. I wasn't planning to – I have plenty to tide me over, lots of samples and GWPs from the Orange Store. But I wanted the reliable items, especially skincare.

So I spent $123 yesterday on skincare I don't need but very much want and am worried it will be harder to get in a year two because of... *gesticulates wildly*... reasons.

I think I'm ready to pare back on any other nonessentials, though. I can make do with my current nonperishables.

Maybe I'll finally finish unpacking the boxes that have been lurking in the basement for the past five years. Maybe this will be the kick in the pants to have a clean and organized space. A sanctuary. A home.

It's not like I'll be able to afford to do anything else.