Day 42: Fight the spiral

The anxiety spiral continues. I spent ~100 the last few days on things I don't need. Clothes, candy, lovely smelling things. The comfort things. I want to wrap myself up in a cozy sweatshirt and eat Dr. Pepper Jellie Bellies while the air smells like the inside of a bakery.

I'm also fighting the knee-jerk urge to update all my electronics. My laptop is barely hanging on, I was planning to update it in the next year or so. Can I afford to do it now? Is the 10-year-old still working well enough? How about my phone? My mother's phone (which is much older)? My mother's computer?

I can't afford to update all of those.

Maybe it won't be as bad as everyone thinks. But... it was pretty bad before, y'know? So I don't have faith that nothing will get done. But maybe nothing will get done, knowing the track record of people in soon-to-be charge. Maybe lobbyists will convince them that ridiculous tariffs solve nothing except keep rich people richer and poor people poorer.

Unless that's actually the agenda.

Ugh.

I can't think about it right now. But I need to figure out my budget. Again.

Sigh.